March 2009
7 posts
x the third
I am exactly one week behind in school. I don’t know how to catch up, even though I’ve had ample opportunity. I have this clear vision sometimes, of exactly who I want to be. But then I think, how could I possibly want to be that person if I am so unmotivated to change. Is change possible? Will I always be that person who is exactly one week behind?
It didn’t use to matter...
x the second
I don’t feel like myself in my own skin. I hate it. And I don’t know how to change it. I cringe when I see pictures of what I am now. And I don’t recognize myself. In the mirror, I see what I used to look like before. Maybe that’s the problem. And then it happens, I see a picture. And I don’t know who it is. I hate, hate, hate it.
“Old habits die hard.”
– http://web.mit.edu/newsoffice/2005/habit.html
“I am unwritten, can’t read my mind, I’m undefined.”
– Unwritten/Natasha Bedingfield
x the first
Ever have an epiphany personal revelation?
I think I had one, just minutes ago.
I want to be somewhere, in between reality and fantasy. I want to do something, in between gritty and glamour. I feel like I am always stuck between two roads. I feel like I’ve always been here, and I used to hate it. But now I think it’s kind of cool, to be no where in particular, and somewhere in...